Silly I know. I know it happens to all of us.
I am a work in progress. Just as one of my awesome cousins said about herself. I know who I am, where I came from and where I'm going. Yet, the getting there is pretty tough.
Someone that I thought was a friend sarcastically said to me, "Tina doesn't have opinions, no way!" and thought she was being funny. It would have been funny had it not hurt my heart. Paul was with me when this person said it and thought it was so hurtful towards me so I know I wasn't imagining it.
I am an honest person and that is not always a virtue. I'm only brutally honest with myself about my own failings. I would never be one to point out others faults because I know that we are our own worst critic. But I also don't play games and I'm not fake. What you see is what you get with me. But I guess that drives people away? Makes me an uninvited guest to fun events. Makes it so people don't even want to sit by me, when there are 3 of us that know each other pretty well and yet, they sit together and do not save a place for me.
I feel like I need my friends, yet I don't feel that they really want or need me.
Sorry, this is a rant. My heart is hurt and I know it will heal. Paul tells me that we are going through these trials both personally and as a family because Heavenly Father is teaching us who we really need to rely on and that its not our friends. But Him (Heavenly Father), and each other.
so my question is this....are friends important? or are they over-rated?
How do you know who your true friends are?
